Monday, October 15, 2012
“Why do you stay in prison when the door is so wide open?" Rumi
It's been way over a year since I started this blog, which was born out of a heartbreaking ending to a short, brief romance. I'm on the other side of the heartbreak, now have a functional friendship with the man I was involved with and though I haven't forgotten the feelings, I'm entirely transformed from the dark place I was in that inspired me to jump out of a plane and take my first Yes Jump. For this--and for all the amazing things I was compelled to do in the wake of my sadness--I'm truly grateful. I'm grateful for the circumstances--and the pain I felt--because they drove me to a sense of adventure I hadn't embraced before.
Now, I'm standing at the edge of many other changes in my life. I'm looking at dark places of my past and transforming them by shining light on them. I'm looking at my dreams--my desire to act in films and on stage, and my craving for a return to a life in a big city--and how I can manifest them. I'm right there ready to let my heart soar--as I take to the stage and screen, as I walk down city streets, and as I finally dare to hope again that my heart may find wings, both in these things and eventually--even if it must be slowly given my history--with a new, close companion.
Thursday, December 8, 2011
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
Thursday, November 24, 2011
An artist is always alone - if he is an artist. No, what the artist needs is loneliness.
And time has told me
Not to ask for more
Someday our ocean
Will find its shore.
So I’ll leave the ways that are making me be
What I really don't want to be
Leave the ways that are making me love
What I really don't want to love."
--from Time Has Told Me by Nick Drake
Monday, November 14, 2011
It's what I learn from the great actors that I work with. Stillness. That's all and that's the hardest thing.
Learning how to be still, to really be still and let life happen - that stillness becomes a radiance.